Work sucks

Just not feelin it today. Im exhausted and im barely halfway though my shift.work has been crazy busy today and I am just ready to keel over.

My gf was feeling down when i was talking to her on my first break and i spent the last part of my shift worrying if she is okay or not.

Been working a week straight and wont have a day off til sunday. I miss her and she misses me and i know all this time away puts a strain on things and i feel powerless being here and not being able to talk while shes blue

Probably adding to why i am not feeling it today. I get off at 6:30am i hope time flys by and im not picked to do.over time.

Weight loss

and eating/living healthy has been a task. my gf and I started cutting back on food the day after the super ball this year so we could start loosing weight and being healthier. The whole time doing so has not been an easy ride. I have always had a big appetite and have always had strong cravings for fast food and sodas. In the months prior to loosing weight I was at my biggest at around 270. 

I as having constant migrains that would not go away for the life of me, breathing problems that weren’t being caused just on my asthma and my cardiologist (I have a heart condition) tell me I had the heart of a 30 year old man. I was getting very scared from all the pain and so was my gf. I have a lot of bad health problems in my family and it was all because of weight. So my gf and I finally decided to do something about it.

3 months and 20+ later I am feeling much better and am already seeing results

I am around 243 now. I do little to no exercise and I have still managed  to lose weight just by cutting back on how much I ate. Eating only one or half of a serving size of whatever I ate. gave up all juices and sodas (minus arizona green teas to help me with I was craving something) and just stopped snacking which was the hardest.

I am feeling a lot better, my chest rarely hurts anymore, my headaches are almost non existent and I have a lot more energy. Best of all I was able to start buying smaller clothes. not buying xxl shirts felt amazing, hadn’t been able to fix good in an xl shirt in a while, with them still being a big big which is a plus. Especially in pants, I was down to one pair of pants at my biggest because everything I had was in a 38 now I am about 2 pant sizes lower and now all my 38 pants sag and I have to wear a belt all the time. 

The other day I had my first McDonald’s hamburger in months and a bit afterwards my stomach was killing me. It was good in a way to show that my body wasn’t to happy with the junk I was putting in  my system so it is a good reminder that what I am doing is for the best. although I do miss the occasional Pizza or 6 dollar burger with a big coke, but I’ve learned to live without 

I am extremely happy where I am and happy that my love could help me get through this. I am not done by a long shot though ,my goal is to fit into this hoodie I have had for some time and havent been able to wear in a few years

that was taken in 2008 when I was watching what I ate and was healthier. I hope to get back to that, to be at least 220-230 would be ideal for me, to be able to wear that hoodie with no tight feeling in the winter time. my gf and I are going to start running at the school track as soon as they’re let out for summer and start an exercise regiment as well. This summer is going to be hard but it will all pay off in the end.